I have a lot on my mind all the time. It's hard to think of one thing at a time.
fears, dating, (those two definitely coincide)
music, acting, sisters, family, friends
it rarely ever stops.
I have had two people in my life whom I loved a lot that are now strangers.
Why does that happen?
Is it simply because they changed?
Or because I changed?
WE changed.
My friend Ryan is honest with his feelings. Really honest. I envy that. I envy that a lot.
I have a problem being honest. Not with lying. If anyone asks me something I tell them the truth. But if someone asks me what is on my mind, I rarely have an answer. Mainly because there is so much on my mind. Also I am scared if I tell them they will shut it down. Or pity me. I hate pity.
I'm happy. I haven't always been happy, but I am. I get sad sometimes, sure. I get low sometimes, sure.
But 90% of the time I am happy.
I am blessed.
And honestly, so are you.
Blessed that is.
Life should be so simple.
LOVE PEOPLE.
LOVE YOURSELF.
easy peasy.
but it's not easy peasy.
It's hard to love myself sometimes.
Sometimes I feel like i'm going to burst.
I just want to yell "THIS IS HOW I FEEL"
But I don't. Because i'm scared.
It's easier to just be quiet.
I envy people who can honestly say "This is my opinion take it or leave it!"
I have trouble doing that.
However, I have no problem saying "This is my opinion! if you don't agree..oh well! We can still be friends!"
So let's be friends. You and I. easy peasy.
